Random Thoughts 11Oct2012

Trust issues. Yep, I got them alright. You can’t blame me, I’ve been betrayed many, many times. No one could describe the pain it brings. Sometimes the pain goes away fast, while most of the times it doesn’t  The truth is it never goes away at all, it throbs your heart whenever you remember how you were betrayed.

This is not only applicable in relationships, but also in friendships. Imagine the pain it brings when you have shared so much with a friend – insights, laughter, tears… yet in the end they will stab you in the back, like a helpless little child, incapable of defending yourself, physically nor emotionally.

This is not only the case. The betrayal part will drive you crazy. You will constantly think how they are able to do such thing to you, and what may have invited them to do so. The sad truth you need to accept is, you can’t guess the reason why. There can be hundreds of reasons why they did such thing – and what is unacceptable is, when you haven’t done anything offending to them at all.

Is it just for fun? Or is it in the way they are raised? Maybe it’s really human nature, I don’t know for sure. All I know is, your actions define who you are. Don’t waste your time for people like them. I’ve learned that it is better to not have that much friends, so long as they are true to you, and they will stand up for you, like how you will stand up for them. This is better than having many friends, but you aren’t sure who among them are really true to you. 

I don’t trust easily, and when I do, my expectations are high, primarily because being a true friend, I’m also willing to give that much in return. It takes a lot to shake my trust; it also takes a lot to rebuild it once it’s broken. In fact, sometimes, you can no longer rebuild it. End of story.


~ by reyeslovegood on 27/10/2012.

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